just what am i?everyone earns their place and keep in society, including friendship. so what did i earn? what am i to you?
so the things i've done in the past, is for naught. great!
since things are going this way, fine! let us all be fussy, since you couldn't let it go the fact that i'm human , and you couldn't accept the fact that other then YOU, other people FEEL down at times. let's count the fussiness.
you can't stand me simply for that small period of down time. considering the things i've done, isn't it more then enough to simply let me redeem a few days of moodiness? not everyone live with happiness in their life.
don't tell me the bullcrap that your not happy. you have love, yet its a love your constantly talking about losing. you have something which others don't have, and you don't want to treasure it. so your constant moodiness cause of this, is alright la? nvm, let that pass. let's move on.
even if to you, the things i've done as a friend, is not enough to earn me the right to feel down and out for simply just A FEW DAYS, certainly it is enough to earn the sincerity of someone? hmmm.
NOOOOOO. a simple task of returning me the money i lent you, PERSONALLY, you couldn't do it. as matured as you are, i'm surprising a matured person doesn't know sincerity.so let's keep count shall we? sincerity, i lack of it? your dear dear's b'dae, though i was god damn fucking busy on that day, i managed to go down and wished him personally. oh, right. i forgot. you don't remember small acts like that. especially small acts from a person like me. fine, let's move on.
so go ahead, continue keeping count of my few days of folly, where i've repeatedly let things slip by without opening one eye.
yea la yea la. i know what your thinking la. i'm gathering pity on my blog. i don't speak my mind? i do. i TYPE. its my god damn fucking ONE AND ONLY outlet to express myself. since typing here is an act of gathering pitying, and self-pitying. then fine lor.
fine, let's do it YOUR prefered way. lets all keep things bottled up inside, and dismiss it with a "nothing la". simple.
and if you haven't notice. despite the things your doing, and your headstrong temper of refusing to admit your in the wrong, i'm the only guy that still types online, trying to slap things into your brain.
wonder why? all other people has given up. and that act this evening? this shall be my last post i'll ever do. and forgive me. an advice from someone i respect "That's why i say don't bother already la. let her be in a world of her own from now on" <>
cool. and i wonder why am i still trying to hard.you want to thank me for hurting you?
no. let ME thank you for letting me learn not to trust people, all over again. no really, from the bottom of my heart, i THANK YOU.
hypocryptic world. let us all be hypocrits. who cares about the spelling? lol. since being good in this world, doesn't pay. why bother? hah.
Valentine's Joker
Valentine's Joker
9:43 AM
Stucked in the middle =(Is been 1wks since my last updated.
Having 2 trouble now *sigh*
Tis few days keep on up and down, school, sleeping, having gathering wif Auditioin member..chattin on fone, gaming =( life is bored / if church member is readin tis ; they will jus tell u, "since u bored, come over to church. Everything will be Diff" - come on la..wont last long for my attitude ^.^V
Before i start everything, i wanna say i LOST my hp ( in the toilet, over my workin area)
I having 2 trouble,
Yesterday evening 17/8, after finish the movie "Ghost Game" wif 1 of the audition member Suzaku(bijiao) no money left XD plan to have a dinner over my house =P. Stay until 10.35pm, i send her back home at Hougang @@ seriously is quite near XD ,Toa Payoh to Potong Pasir, ride NorthEastline to Kovan, 2 bus stop will reach XD.
Tryin to settle down and have a chat wif my parent(mother) bout gettin my 3rd r/s(relationship) .. My Mum's reaction is "Wat for!? u still 18! studyin now. no money and still wan to get into relationship...everything still i need to pay to u! like last time wif Yvonne, her mother BDY i still had to pay for her.. A~Z-Z~A. Wei Chong is useless la..study first. U still need to go in army" i was like can u pls shut up jus 1 min, jus let mi keep back wat i said jus now ='(
Tis 2 wks Bijiao and mi keep having Dinner and breakfast almost like continue 3 days..even Audition clubber oso can see tat r realli toooo close liao..btw she's 20 :D workin now (atleast not a playful type - vivian u know my meaning la haha), but i'm still a student.
The feel is NOT feel for mi now.. so i dun wanna start a relationship, i do care for her like other. I jus cant make myself to start tis r/s. Maybe is a crash or wat. I jus give myself 1 mth more..if after 1 mth feelin still the same..haiz - i dun know la..dun think about it first..tonitez work again ..sunday having plan for ForceFlow(clubber), he goin oversea fly at monday morning. So we plan to have a last dinner wif him, before he return to singapore.^^
Since after lost the HP..dun know wat i goin to have it next..maybe the fone tat i'm using last time de =(...if have extra cash ^^ i go buy new hp wahah..!! ( dream on k )
Vivian-
Sry vivian, tis few days like dao-ing u ..teacher mark mi liao haiz..for using HP haha..is fine now =P hp lost..teacher wanna mark mi oso hard ar..i go buy a Toy Hp and smoke tat teacher =X i'm so bad.
ShuFen-
Shufen, maybe u r the gal like to look for trouble (as in, give in tat time..u not realli willin to give in, tats y u r realli sad. I wish u choose the rite guy, so many ppl warn u now..he dun love u as much as present(s)..i wish u get my word my dear^^ take care..since tat time i lectured u ..u dun dare to sms mi liao ar aha.
Patrina-
Dun keep giving stupid remark la..we both not in r/s..i will dun realli know wanna go for it ma..the feel for mi is not rite now ^^ __o.O__ Yea! haha..study hard la!..btw..dun treat yr bf tat worse..he is a gd boy as every ppl know ahha..he is a camper =P wat u wan ..he will have it XD..u need a guy i know..dan dun bulli him haha..later he run ( u r goin to say "run run lo" correct? haha ) k la..dan wis u gd luck
*Road r still long, Heaven still need mi to touch it*
*Hell is the places tat for sinner, i'm the 1 who steps on devil* - i still love u my lord.
Valentine's Joker
Valentine's Joker
7:42 AM
Bored or Boring?2~3 days nva bloggin liao, today is 8/10 in the morning i think ):
Had a Wonderful nitez yesterday, Should i said is "WonderFul"?
8/9 NDP, the very early morning at 4am. -_- i've caught a video wif liang-er and vivian(first met) she so cute XD lucky she's not taller dan mi NIAK! XD no offence. We had tat show called "LakeHouse" is damn meanin full. Dun realli know how to explain, but my fren Liang-er fell asleep -_- maybe is bored 2 him. (reached home at 8am 8/9)
P.S - Realli need to catch the movie
-8/9-
Back home, sleep, woke up at 3.30pm thxs to bijiao(suzaku) woke mi up.
met them at DBG arcade, same old mistake all late =/
After all of them reached ( Suzaku, Splash, Shuya, Jinus, Kenchii, cindy, patrain & mi[ValentineGOD] ). Went to brought the Ticket first, the movie we watchin is "click", Damn funni!! and MEANING FUL!(in the last part), can fight wif "i'm not stupid 2".
After the whole Movie we cried we laugh.
~11.12pm~
Jinus need to back home early due for tml schoolin, the rest all headed to Lanshop, we saw Arminz and Truth playin at same lan @@. played until 3pm. And SgCuteGal/SgCuteGal (tat maple bootes guy) came and look for Patrina and Cindy.
Tat oso my first met =X and we talk bout last time (tat i brought hack from him and million). Ht said "Patched again, but i still have the hack..i will send it to you for free" i was like %&$@ so gd!? coz patrina keep using free hack from sgcute =/ haha.
~3.30am~ 8/10
Is raining day in the morning, we all gathered up and had a supper at the nearby coffee shop (Truth and Arminz came along wif us). after all whose stuff and food, wat we do is statue inside the coffee shop until 8.45am.
Patrina: u r tryin to ask mi wat is yr impression for u and cindy rite =/ i will tell u at the 24th gathering..btw thxs to u ..tat we had the very greatz game tat u set for us. Maybe we all quite sleepy tats y =P dun realli get tat upset, tat da vic code game realli pull out my white hair.
Shufen: sry^^ too busy hardly can reply u back..how is yr HOLIDAY of yr bf? izizt fun and happenin haha. Did u celebrate yr NDP yesterday wif yr love's one or fren outside? u should realli take gd care of yrself..btw how is yr hamster haha, must be very health. ahha
~* Izzit fate? *~
Tat time at coffee shop slackin.
all seem like goin to be couple.
When Shuya lying his head down at the table, and Arminz will play wif his hair and tell him go home now and sleep =/ so sweet >.< i'm jealous & Truth was lyin on Kenchii's shoulder while she feel realli sleepin XD so sweet sia. (Wish they r not lookin at tis blog XD) . so i'm the 1 jus over there..doing nothing =/ fate fate ( i need to be handsome abit, maybe things will turn out differently)
Valentine's Joker
Valentine's Joker
11:02 AM
Thing Turn out like Tis (Devil)Is been while tat i posted up my blog again. Tis few days seem like realli busy and cant get into a gd rest. How i could wish i get back my routine, but i need money 2 =/
Workin is a places tat need fellowship and belives in each other, when the topic of "money" is up mankind seem to be change to beast, or maybe worse dan tat. Cheatin, lie and other stupid stuff will came alone wif them. Is realli been a hard time for mi to trust a guy tat older dan mi.
Tis Few days stress over c2pid old problem, get back my olden days tat i use to smoke. Smokin let mi feel dizzy and relax, after finish few sticks. Things end out worst, keep wanna smoke, vomit, cant work properly and cannot think realli well. But thxs to some1 tat i love/respect. I'm okie now a promised is meant for keep not for break^^ i'm not others tat break promise easily as gd as farkor =/ i'm serious hate it! PB(Promise Breaker) realli sux! they need to REPENT! *sigh*
I caught a movie yesterday =X "Tokyo Dirft", din realli rmb the esp.1 story line. So i was thinkin he is a bad drive XD or a weak Drifter?!. Too many hot chick inside liao @@ cant stand myself over there, feel like goin to Japan =P it will be a make over for mi haha.
After the whole show, plan to get my hair cut. (onli hair cut!) things turn out like tat XD i got psyco from the ppl over there ..and the coloured hair realli caught mi. Turn out i got a High-Light Red haha...Cuttin $14 HighLight $15 and i brought the Wax $15 T.T $44 *Fly*..Later goin to workin wif tat guy again..wish no more lie and pattern, maybe i will be earnin more =/.*Dun jus go coz u behalf of yr BF,they will think any other way.
(everything will up to u as long as u smile, and i will be fine *wink wink*)
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ShuFen,
i dun wanna things to happen out so worse. He jealous coz he still in love wif u .. i..i dun wanna be a fker like my fren tat i trusted did all tis to mi. The feelin not realli gd^^ anything u can still find mi..but i will be realli busy in tis coming wks and sucky school..take care dan.Valentine's Joker
Valentine's Joker
11:17 AM
What have i Done?!Last few days i brought a pack of Marlboro Lights =/, sian ar..while talkin wif my fren i took some of it and puff. wat a day i had, felt so bored so bored (worse dan PMS)
Yesterday morning had a fought wif my fren tat i respected alot, maybe he too tired liao slept at 4am and i still gave him morning call at 6.30 for breakfast. (dude while u readin tis blog i wish u can understand of mi. we all r mature enuff to understand, u said tat i nva cfm time wif u rite, u still rmb tat morning 9am+ monday u woke up late and end up we nva plan to have our breakfast and i asked u tml wat time schoolin rite, and u replied 8am =/ so! i told u on the spot rite arbo we meet tml la. So the time and places is set liao, u still dare to tell mi we nva cfm the time. I alrdy lost a fren tat dao mi so many wks liao, if u still wan to be lidat seriously i'm fine wif it).
Finally!! i changed back my routine liao^^ yesterday morning (tuesday) dun realli sleep and str8 went to school^^ wahah..released at 12pm and i went to bishan brought my fren's BDY present tat i own her for 1mth liao =X. So tat time am realli shag sia cannot tahan..keep yawning and yawning zzZzzZzz. I got myself to the Bishan nearby NTUC beside the arcade =X tat i heard for my fren tat 4thMix Percussion @@ 4song 50cent and hardly can die (OMG).
Quite alot of student over there, all play wif auto bass =P. my heart pound so fast is seem like am goin to action and tryin to be cocky over there liao niak niak niak.
My day realli shag. I still at Bishan waitin for my fren's fren so i puff wif them while waitin for her. After she came over is like useless lo..[WTF]. We walk from left to right entance to exit -_- and the time goin to 6pm.. so every i cannot tahan liao. My breath is gettin heavy and heaver felt like even i'm standin oso can fall asleep XD.
Yea!! bus 88!! go home liao^^ since 11am my hp batt alrdy dry up. So i cant reply u back=P
(my workin time all is part time job, may i have FULL time =P maybe some ppl will get my meaning wahahah =X ops)..after reached home finshed bathin..Air-Con is On, and i replied my last Sms liao.
PENGZ! sleep! ar. ^^ wahah and i woke up at 6.15am(wednesday) 6 miss call 3 sms -.- 1 call and msg is from manager =/ ask mi to work for today 6pm~3am (WAH!) my sleepin routine goin back to square 1 again T.T
Prepare goin to school liao!! take gd care guys *hugz*Valentine's Joker
Valentine's Joker
6:59 AM
Am i good or what?
i went to the arcade approximately 8 hours ago. started drumming like mad. was kinda stressed up. as usualy, people started flocking and crowding behind me.
this time, i'm not sure if i was lucky or what, i got an A in madblast. heh heh. but i couldn't seem to get it anymore after that. :(
but nevermind, my main point is, someone actually took my picture while i was playing! omg! a foriegner. i was playing when a flash go off beside me, so i just turned my head and see. she was grinning at me with her camera. oh man. i was kinda embarrased. but to speak honestly, it felt great. heh heh.
this means i have gone up another lvl in my arcade drumming. how i wish i can play that well on a real drumset. and also tried a lvl 99 song. don't know what is the freaking name. but i only know i was too tired to play finish the whole song. the pedals of the game and the drum roll. omg, is really not for humans to play. super fast rolling plus insane bass. thank god my leg is still intact.
anyways, gtg play games and up my level. so ciao!
Valentine's Joker
Valentine's Joker
4:00 AM
